Day 5 ~ Trusting God For Direction in You Journey

I am writing from my heart today.  I am not sure what this journey will look like as it isn't my journey as much as it is God's for me, but I guess with everything in life you take two steps forward and what feels like three steps back.

God was talking to me here which is why I chose this for
the picture.  God is awesome and if we take the time to
look up, He promises to guide us every step of the way.

I am feeling a sense of pressure, tension, and stress, yet, but again.  I wish I could just figure out how life can exist without it in my life.  I am still hanging on to my Family Readiness Group Leader volunteer job for my husband's former Army Reserve Unit because no one has stepped up to replace me yet.  This is a huge prayer request I have in my life.  After my husband has served his Country for 23 years you would think now he is retired that we could retire completely and live normal civilian lives, but for the moment we can't.  I don't have it in my heart to let down the remaining Soldiers in this unit by stepping down yet without a replacement, so here I sit, totally frustrated as I have a ton of work to do in order to be prepared for this next drill.  I had been working through the holiday season, but found myself so stressed over preparing my family for the holiday season that I just set my work on the back burner. Then I heard due to circumstances that half our unit wasn't going to be available so I used that as my sign to not worry about anything I would simply work over the weekend to get my job caught back up, well that all changed yesterday.  Now I have to pull a magic trick and get it all done.  I am not happy. 

Now that I said I would be here daily, I am here now to say I don't think this will happen.  I will make every attempt to check in daily with something as best as I can though.  Just be patient as I work though trying to find a replacement in my Army job so I can step down and let someone else hold the reigns. I will free up a ton of time by letting my Army Volunteer job go.  My family will be more than happy as well since they are my volunteers.  I just know God has someone out there, but are they listening to His words?  I am sure feeling like they aren't.  When will I be done, that question continues to be an uncertainty, but I am trusting God who knows my heart and my needs to find this answer for me.